Today I sat, I read, I prayed, and I listened to what my mind, body and spirit was gently preparing me for. Then in my subconsciousness my body felt the sudden urge to move. Not move outside of my house but move closer to my chromebook so that I could sit up and write.
It is a new month and I have yet to really type out my focus and present a new blog but I can say that my mind has been very busy with ideas, lists, goals, and timelines that I must crank something out today. Even though I successfully converted my Brown Sugar Magic book into a more focused Goal Setting and Success Coaching Guide that I want to convert into an email course or something… working on the logistics of that! I’m doing all of this by myself, so I’m taking my time!
However lately, I have been on a quiet journey of re-centering myself because I’ve needed divine intervention in my thought processes while ultimately working on me. Ironically light has transcended through me and I have been helping others not really thinking about it in that way. I only know I’ve been helping because of the messages and encouragement I have received. But in my readings today, two things stood out and they made my heart race just a little bit… have I been Believe in your worth.
Release any doubts of your value.Believe in your worth.
Release any doubts of your value.pouring into others when I felt empty? and, am I truly preparing myself for what I want?
I did a live video the other day on my LaTilya Rashon “tilyarealeyes”page and while I got feedback, I said to myself that I was just beginning to scratch the surface of the work that I am doing on myself. I’m going to do a follow-up to that video on my youtube channel soon but right now I’m just figuring some stuff out.
I KNOW a lot of people, but the reality is I call very few my friends because as the seasons change and we grow individually, we realize that everyone does not nourish your soul in the same way. We as people make mistakes in general and when we are working through those things, the last thing we want to feel is any type of memory that could reset your feelings towards those things. This may seem like a ramble…but it’s not! I’m just clearing the space in my head for the endured journey I am taking.
I wrote a while back about 3 Things I’m Completely Obsessing Over and Thing 3 was finding the BALANCE in my LIFE! I am still very much my hardest critic. As I examine my life, it is a canvas for others because I have a story to tell about how even when I block certain things out and jump over hurdles, I have NEVER just given up! I am a walking billboard for beating statistics…I can’t wait to get that story told.
In the months to come I am going to unveil my life in a series of lessons I’ve learned. It’s for my healing and for my growth. I did not get this far because I wasn’t focused. I got this far because I was driven… I would be remiss to not mention that two awesome friends Yolanda and Ashley have spoke into my life a shift in careers so I am embracing their genuine sincerity.
There’s plenty of work to do and in by doing the work on myself I hope my transparency continues to transcend. Some of the things to be tackled are:
- Growing up as a only child.
- My feelings towards my biological father.
- My first attempt at college…The University of Florida (2000-2001)
- My failed marriages (2003-2011) and (2014-2017)
- Transitioning careers (USAF, Child Support, Teaching, Writing, ____________)
- Expunged record of arrest from 2009…
- Financial Ruin and the Recovery Process.
- Trust and Intuition.
- Remaining positive during the storm.
I’m not empty, I’m just cautious. We can still pour into others without completely tapping out. I know and recognize my limitations as I work towards and prepare myself for the LIFE and LOVE I want. As I COACH myself, I hope you take away little nuggets along the way.
Isn’t ironic how on August 26, 2016 my thought process was I Don’t Want to Coach, I Just Want to Write but that was more so in the aspect of being a writing coach. But I’m exploring a different avenue…Life and Success Coaching because my purpose is bigger than I innately realized in the beginning. For faith is substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Research continues… Continue to follow my journey… Leave a nice comment or note and please share!
I am not perfect but I will use my voice to do what I do best…Teach Others How to Cope!